Jacked!

In November I left NY. Too expensive, too much work, not enough personal time. But tell me why, during the last week that I lived there, ALL of my photo equipment was stolen. ALL of it! Two cameras, 3 lenses a flash and my tripod mount.  I was heartbroken. Not because I care about materials all that much, but because one of the reasons I was leaving NY was to have more time and money to work my art again. Satisfy the creator within and The Creator above.

I used to consider myself a Fine Art Photographer. That was before the full time gig... before I got sucked into the NY hustle and the posh posh art scene, where I mastered the art of walking the walk and talking the talk.  The art of looking, viewing, supporting...It was cool at the time because I was confident that the path I was on would lead me somewhere worthwhile... and it did in a sense. I know now EXACTLY what I want. 

I KNOW I want to photograph again... not for public exhibition purposes (not that I would turn the opportunity down) but for sanity's sake. For balance.   

I KNOW I am NOT cut out to work for other people. My vision of how things should be, and what needs to me done in order to be successful, is too strong and impeding to be an employee. 

I KNOW that family and friends, relationships and love are THE priority. 

The problem, as usual, is how the hell to get what I want? Obviously, there is no single answer to that, and I have about 30 different ideas about what to do in order to get what I want. But I guess the bottom line is to keep it moving! Forward movement, right? 

Archive the past, live in the present and pray for the future. 

Wish me luck.